February 2010
79 posts
perniciouswithag: I miss you!
bgurlmichizzle: aw i miss you too
perniciouswithag: seriously it's been awhile I forgot how much I enjoyed talking to you
formspring.
it’s like the new craze or something; literally everyone has one now. people abuse and spam it. i’ve joined many others and deleted mine. if you have something you want to ask me or say to me, do it in person.
the ipod's on shuffle and my memories are flooding...
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“you’re as good as you want to be.”
January 2010
73 posts
i thought of you today and it made my heart clench. we used to be so happy together. we’re nothing anymore. i still have your picture and i can’t even bear to look at it. hah i’m such an insane idiot. most of the time i’m completely fine, but if something reminds me of you, it brings me back…
ow.
oh my goodness, i’m so unbelievably sore. running, running, burpies, mountain climbers, and squats yesterday nonstop for twenty minutes. maybe that explains our shitty perfomance today, because we were all so sore! yuck bad perfomances =/ wow i just got a fat craving for spaghetti. mm i love spaghetti. i got a really obese charley horse yesterday after working out, it hurt so freaking bad. i...
this is the second time this school year that i’ve felt so panicked. practice test practice rally test practice homework competition practice rehearsal test test homework rehearsal homework sick sick sick. cal grant. fafsa. SHIT.
circle lenses.
why do girls like to wear circle lenses so much? or colored contacts. when i look around me at school and in my classes, i see so many asian girls with green, hazel, and blue eyes. obviously your eyes aren’t naturally that color, ahaha. but why the sudden desire to change your eye color? your dark brown eyes are lovely just the way they are.
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day twenty-six.
today has not been my day at all. the light activity from physics gave me a headache because the light was too bright. i got dissed so bad at lunch today. freaking rude. people at school can’t watch where they’re going, douches. some little fat kid hella ran into me. yea, excuse you. i hope we have an intense practice that leaves my legs shaking, late.
dance.
there are some people who seriously can’t dance, but think they can. sorry if this sounds mean, but if you can’t dance, you should get offstage. i’m a dancer and i can’t stand seeing poor technique and half-assed moves. i work towards perfection. i bleed, sweat, cry, and scream. people waddle around declaring themselves “dancers” when they haven’t seen a...
girl scout cookies.
i want girl scout cookies but i’ve yet to order them. thin mints and samoas please :] i want to try the dulce de leche ones though. caramel is one of my many addictions. $4 a box though? everything’s so expensive nowadays.
day twenty-five.
i need to stop procrastinating on my physics test corrections! i’m probably going to have to take the test on thursday, because i’m missing class on friday due to the rally. practice on tuesday, wednesday, and thursday, which kinda makes me mad. not like i’m the one who desperately needs it, heh. of course we’ll reviewreviewreview for days and have like one hour total to run the routine. then...
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kp.
this time last year was when everything began. forbidden lust. i still remember it, the first words you said to me. the alarming coincidence and few hidden late night conversations that we had…
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why do people have such low expectations for me? i got a 700 on my math II subject test a few months ago, and when i told people, they all got looks of shock on their faces. someone even had the nerve to say “wow, i thought you were dumb”. what the fuck? who says that? i couldn’t even come up with a response, i just stared at him while fighting the urge to sock him in his smug...
restore.
if you feel like you and your friend(s) are beginning to drift apart, do something about it if they mean enough to you. if they’re worthless and not worth your time, let them go, but if they’re worth it, fight for them. make an effort to bring them back and restore your friendship before it’s too late. last night, i called a special friend of mine who i hadn’t really talked...
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formspring.me
how much do u weigh?
ninety-eight pounds. i look like i weigh more, right? haha.
How do u learn how to do the splits?
it’s not really learning how, it’s gaining the ability to. when i first wanted to get my splits, i spent about thirty minutes everyday stretching like crazy. i would go as far down into my splits as i could and hold it until i...
creeper.
stop messaging me on facebook chat please. i accepted your friend request because you look familiar, but i’ll delete you if you don’t leave me alone. i don’t even know you, what the heck. hahaha. freaking creeper. it’s kinda scary how people can hella creep on the internet. and if you message me online and i don’t reply, don’t spam me saying “are you...
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horoscope.
“Everyone is all talk, and while you might be into that sometimes, right now you’re bored and want some action. You’ll have to be the one to make things happen.”
O.O
apathetic.
i don’t feel like doing anything. i’m tired of being absolutely useless at analyzing literature. i listen to the thinking of my classmates and just feel discouraged. i’m incapable of attracting anyone of the opposite sex. i can’t get good grades because my work is shit. i can’t meet my own expectations. i’m tired of being a foul-tempered failure that exhausts my...
i want to slap you. as hard as i can, so that the sting brings tears to your eyes. i want to scratch you and feel your blood flowing beneath my nails. i want to kick and punch and shove and leave you with scrapes and bruises all over your body. i want to strangle you. wrap my fingers around your neck so that you’ll open your eyes in shock and see what’s standing right in front of you.
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“sing from your heart. dance with raw emotion. pour your heart out and connect...”
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formspring.me
what is your deepest fear?
failure. i’m terrified that i won’t succeed and i’ll be left with nowhere to go, with my parents disappointed in me.
ask me what you want to know.
i loved it today when you held me close.
no.
i won’t. i refuse.
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Hatred paralyzes life, love releases it. Hatred...
(via danielhuynh)
eyeliner.
i bought two more eyeliners today because i’m almost out. i didn’t intend to buy two though! ahaha. then at choir, eric liu gave me a mirror screen protector for my itouch, yes! thank you so so much x]. i don’t think i should’ve done the kneel at the end of “spirit lake”, because it didn’t feel very good. hopefully it was just a figment of my imagination...
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“There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power....”
– Washington Irving (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)
memories.
many of my memories are associated with scents and songs. people, events, and feelings from my past. whenever i spray on some perfume in the morning before school, i’m engulfed by my memories. if you introduce me to a song or i hear a song for the first time with you, it automatically becomes a song that reminds me of you when i hear it. it’s a bittersweet thing.
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one-oh randoms.
1. i sing, dance, and play two instruments. 2. i hate having bare lips; i always have lip balm on. on the rare occasion that i wear lip gloss or lipstick, i always wear lip balm underneath. 3. i can do all three splits. in eighth grade, i couldn’t touch my toes. 4. i’m almost always eating. i’m very picky about what i put in my body; if it doesn’t look or smell (or...
jumbled.
even though you haven’t always treated me well despite everything we’ve been through together, your pain upsets me. it’s been two years since we’ve talked. i could treat you the same way you treated me, but i won’t. i’m putting it in the past and being the bigger person. i understand your situation, believe me.
it’s so weird. wo men shi hao pen you....
gimpy.
sprained tendons in both knees means no practicing for a week, so i basically just sat on my fat ass at practice today. the routine is finished though! we ran out of music for the first time in our lives. that means we’re cutting out the crappy choreography in putting in the extra, cooler choreography. oh yes. i was ravenous though, goodness. i was chilling in my room looking like a bum with...
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“i live in narnia.”
– giovanni magana
want.
-i want to change my hair. cut it short, get new bangs, or dye it. or all of the above. -a lip piercing. not snakebites even though i’ve wanted them for four years, because everyone has them now. i want one in the middle of my bottom lip. -tattoos. hip bone, shoulder blade, and neck.
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“you don’t have to dance. you can just sit and i’ll give you a lap...”
– marwin ruiz
lost.
i’m so confused. i don’t know how i feel. i don’t know how i should feel. why now, all of a sudden? pointless. this shouldn’t be happening.
realization.
listening to sad music brings out so many emotions in me. it usually also brings out tears, a release for me. what i’ve thought about a lot today is the devastating 7.0 earthquake that shook haiti. it’s estimated that there have been at least ten thousand casualties, correct me if i’m wrong. ten. thousand. ten thousand mothers, fathers, sons, daughters, wives, husbands, uncles,...
last month, you walked out of my life without looking back. thirty five days later, i’m still missing you.
day twelve.
my knees hurt like a bitch now. practicing while crippled was not a good idea, and i looked like an old man when i got down on the floor and got up from the floor -______-
i’m so confused. what should i do? what’s going on?!
digital media, lunchtime visit from laura (though it’s for money), ap english, and possibly doctor’s tomorrow. let’s do this.
m: what is there to do this late?
c: uh. we could go hot tubbing.
m: naked?
c: no, what the fuck.
g: hahaha.
craving.
mm white chocolate macadamia cookies. they’re amazing. gio bought me one on friday and it made me smile. constantly craving pho and california rolls. sour skittles, milky way bars, cool ranch doritos, and hot cheetos. my absolute favorites, tehe.